Venting...

So the holidays are coming up and in a way I'm dreading it. I dread the holidays now because of his work schedule. I dread the heartache. and the feeling of being alone. His work schedule always causes us to be apart for at least one holiday. I never know until the last moment what his schedule will be and it aggravates me. Ugh. On top of that, I'm just frustrated with his work schedule period. He barely has time to spend time with me and his son. Honestly, I just want him to spend time with his son because the way I see it is that I've had the past 8 years with him but our son has only had the past 2. I need a punching bag to let out this frustration. :(